Good Morning to you all,
I was so hesitant on putting this out, and I was wondering if I should reword a few things because I didn't know how people would perceive it. But I'll just write as it's given to me. I woke up this morning with a lot on my mind and had been dealing with some deep issues in my life...I lost my mom December 23rd, just 2 days before Christmas of 2000, right after I had my third daughter. She was diagnosed with breast cancer in June of that same year and it spread to other organs,skin, bones, and finally her brain. Here's a woman who was the sweetest woman you could ever meet. she was a nurse and she would do anything for anyone. I couldn't understand for the life of me why God would take my mother, and at such a young age, she was only 46. I felt that that was the hardest thing I'd ever been or would go through but that was just the beginning....in the following years I've experienced some great things and lost some as well. I'm not saying all this to let everyone know my business or for pity's sake but God helped me to realize first that I'm not the only one who has gone through or will go through some difficult times. That happiness is truly based upon our decision to be happy. Let me explain what I mean.....every day that we live there will be obstacles and trials. There will always be someone who doesn't like us, someone will always lie and sad to say we may even face the loss of a loved one at some point. The point is there will always be SOMETHING. How we deal with it is whats important. Now, God is very much a reality in my life so if this goes beyond your beliefs or whatever you can choose not to read any further, that's fine by me but to you who have chosen to stick around I've learned that we decide whether or not if we're going to have a good or bad day. That's not to say nothing bad will happen. Knowing that depression, stress, anger, unforgiveness, envy, jealousy, hatred, etc..is not of God but that he wants us to have life, and life more abundantly. Knowing that no matter what God allowed it and he has a plan and a purpose for our lives. Everything we've gone through and will go through was ordered by God to A) bring us closer to him B) mold us into what/who he wants us to be. Romans 5:3-5 says that suffering produces perseverance , perseverance character, and character hope. I'm sure most of us have heard that song by Marvin Sapp."Never Would Have Made It", well there's apart where he states that he's stronger, wiser, that he's much better. Trials come to make us better people. We learn to have patience, and compassion for other people and if you've ever been forgiven by God so many times, like I have...you learn to forgive other people as well. I know some may say "well who does she think she is...and all I have to say to that is...I'm just a nobody, trying to tell every and anybody who will listen, about somebody, who can save anybody. I'm just a broken vessel that is willing to share how good God is too me. How he's my best friend, how he dries my tears, how he loves me no matter what I've done or will do. He has never left me, and He has never failed me. God will do the same for you. Thanks for taking the time to read this. Make a decision to make today a better day no matter what.